Matrix of Hate

Recently I was hit with a hater on an advertisement for a car I am selling. I was annoyed by his comments and felt the need to chargeback. I failed!
His comment, “And you call yourself an influencer!” the mocking tone made me most frustrated.

In this case, I am trying to sell a car, nothing more, nothing less. Obviously, this person is watching or reading more into my car selling than the average Joe. But it got me thinking. “What is the point?”. Why do I feel the need to write or do the odd video? I assure you it is NOT to be an influencer. This is far from my motive, and if truth be told, I over-analyze and overthink everything, even my blogging, vlogging, and writing goals. So, NO, I am not trying to be an influencer.

I am trying to meet people on a common ground. I am trying to love people where they are at. With so much division and hate in the world, it is difficult to meet people where they are. Everybody, including me, seems to have a past of dredged-up trauma, shitty upbringings, and/or too many failed relationships to count. How do we overcome the PTSD caused by the past? I keep saying that it is the fruits of the spirit. Biblically speaking it is love, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. But, we constantly fail! Everybody! Instead of taking our thoughts captive, we lash out in defence of someone's judgments, someone's opinions, or someone's assessment of our behaviour. The latter must stop if we desire harmony in our circles of influence.

So, this is the purpose of my blogs, to teach unity. I am very aware that there are many teachers, gurus, pastors, preachers, and influencers, in which I have grudgingly entered their ranks. It is not the job I signed up for, it seems to be a position which has been imposed on me. Please be aware, nobody will ever live up to any perceived expectation we impose on them.  This being said, if my experiences help others come out of the chaotic mess that so many are striving to cleanse their minds of, then it is a job that I am honoured to accept.

Again, what is the point?!?

The point is this…

People watch and judge. We want to follow someone that has their “poop-in-a-group”. Perception is key to being a follower, and once the charade is exposed, disappointment can wreak havoc on our mind, body, and soul. In the case of “Operation Car Promotion,” there is a perceived idea of who I am.

My writing and my personal life collide, as I was a business owner and salesperson for over 30 years. I know sales, and salespeople have always been labelled as crooked or dishonest. I did my best to be fair, honest, and truthful within the context of selling items designed to break becoming useless garbage within a pre-determined life expectancy (usually 5 minutes after the warranty expires). But the car? It is an extension of a guy's deep inner ego. Look at me, look at what I have. It’s pointless really, and deep down most people know this.  This leads me to the point of the matrix we are partakers in. 

I love cars! I grew up with the desires of stuff, the American dream, and the ego. My writing has me rethinking everything I lived for and everything I dreamed of. Since 2020 many people have reconsidered their values and where to pour their energy. We are awakening to a change of heart, a desire to create better relationships and remove ourselves from the matrix of hate. The difficult and narrow path is realizing the path to loving action while being clouded by the matrix of hate, selfishness, and an overbearing ego, which can be a slow and confusing process. Things are changing in the world, as the ego is being adsorbed by people who are finding peace in not needing worldly desires, such as fancy cars, a beautiful home, and the next look at me dopamine pleasure hit.

​Everything at the end of the day is a façade, which will rot and rust. We all try to find our tribe, the group of people who accept us for who we are. Everyone (assuming) wants to find love and acceptance. In a world agitated by hate, accusations, and misunderstandings it is no wonder that some people find my attempt to bridge differences and find love disturbing and not encouraging. I always say I am on a path to learning to be a better human and how do I remove myself from the matrix of hate? Influencer I am not, I am trying to encourage us all to be better people when faced with adversity. How do we learn to be resilient during those times of gossip, slander, and mocking? It is not easy…

In my defense, I never made claims that I am better, wiser, cooler, or that somehow my words on paper (the spells) make me a guru of love (whatever that is?). The car that triggered this blog is a small reflection of my heart, but I don’t love cars more than people. For the people who judge my intentions or toll my content and writing, may I ask you to judge your reasoning and intentions first before sending anyone nasty messages., comments, or spells? If you are a paid Troller, maybe find a more rewarding job.

​To conclude this blog, I am finding the navigation of the internet, social media, and relationship life excruciating. The human condition of hate and division has been amplified to a severe level, and it does not seem to be getting better. With my ongoing study and understanding of mind control through the various unseen forces, it is evident that the call for order out of chaos and the Brave New World is here. In this New World, the desired outcome is “Do What Thou Wilt” within the context of a hidden moral code that nobody can achieve. Loving one another, what a strange concept…

Hmmmm… interesting times for sure.

Still learning, growing and trying to figure out this thing called life. Oh, and don't engage with the hate, it serves no purpose.
 
By a vessel,
William John 

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