Hello everyone, 
Today is the last time I will blog for a while or until I have a message so profound that I must share it with everyone. Also, I am getting ready to remove myself from the Facebook platform, as it truly is a waste of time (for me).

Sometime in 2018, I removed myself from all social media platforms as I took a full-time job and saw no need to promote my work. I hopped back onto the social media promotion platforms in 2023 to promote my 1st book, An Abomination That Caused Desolation, with the recommendation of my publisher. Promotion on social media wreaked havoc on my relationship with my significant other, and I wondered if it was a good thing to be scrolling and building a followers list. Yes, I received some sales for the book I was promoting, but if I am being honest, it was consuming my time with little financial, personal, or spiritual benefit. I see more bad than good with social media, and I believe it is the reason for so many relationship hookups, breakups, and the overall mental decay in society. People are becoming dissatisfied with their lives as they follow their favorite experts everything, spiritual gurus, or un-godly advice from friends.

This year has been extremely challenging spiritually, relationally, physically, and mentally. Broken cars, a broken heart, a broken existence, but the show must go on, they insist. It seemed the book I started writing a year ago was never going to be ready for publication. Some challenges I faced were the result of knowing too much and trying to be patient with those people closest to me. The book was slow to write, unlike my first book, and I attribute much of the writer's block to an onslaught of personal and spiritual attacks I felt the need to defend myself against. God was with me, but I failed to see the challenges were for growth, I see a clear path now.

I have not always been an extrovert, and honestly, I still don't think I am. I put myself "out there" because I am scared of being alone, and the fear of not being liked. I do feel that God (the divine spirit within our soul, mind, heart, and body) gave me an important task, to get to the bottom of spiritual chaos. Not just a journey for me, but for us, as we are all connected, and it appears that many people are dealing with the devil inside.

I was determined to have the newest book ready for September, as it would mark the 1st anniversary of the launch of An Abomination That Caused Desolation. Well... it didn't happen. To add insult to an already broken ego, the book would not be published unless I removed some controversial content. What is the content you may be asking?  I learned that we are not allowed to label certain groups and use names associated with secret societies and the banking system. It's censorship, free speech is an illusion. How convenient (sarcasm), so I rewrote about 6 paragraphs. It isn't a big deal, but it has slowed things down till maybe mid-December if all my ducks (or should I say, bucks?) align.

After several weeks of re-reading and editing, I must say, this is an excellent manuscript. It is heavy, as I deep-dive into the human condition, and our connection to the beast, the spirit of the dragon, and the devil inside. It made me angry, it made me laugh, and it made me cry. I honestly think it is a MUST-read. I suspect many books discuss my revelations, as I borrow some material from authors, politicians, screenwriters, and musicians. Our human condition is a hot topic, but I want this book to be a history guide on how we got to be this self-indulged, self-promoting, and lovers of self members of society. We must find that "loving feeling" of unity if we desire a life everlasting. 

Unlike my first book, the bible was not my main source of information. The intention of this book was to explore why certain people are a threat to the political establishment. It moves quickly into the conclusion, and for several chapters, I show how our desire for metaphoric gold is used to drive the economy and our hearts. It is the seven deadly sins and the spirit of the dragon which has created the spiritual chaos, we all possess it.

My promotion of this book is looking different. I am setting up my website store. This means books, poetry, and blogs will be offered for sale. As well, I am also working on  POP (point of purchase) material, such as tee-shirts and coffee mugs. I will have a mobile broadcasting/podcasting station ready in the spring, being onsite makes more sense than wasting my time promoting to people I have never met online.

I am convinced, we need a change of heart, and I write from this belief and have faith that we will finally unite and put love before hate.

By the vessel, 
William John

This week I was interrupted by some specs of sawdust in the eye. I struggled through two nights of sleepless discomfort as my body tried to work the specs out of my cornea. The discomfort became too much and I finally broke down Wednesday morning, deciding to go to the hospital. The doctor put some freezing drops in the eye which only took a few seconds to relieve the discomfort. The first spec was obvious as it was larger, and a Q-tip and solution pulled it off the eyeball, easy-peasy. Just so no spec gets left behind, an orange dye and ultraviolet light were used to help find the smallest of undesirables. Two very tiny specs had embedded themselves into the cornea. The doctor's constant flicking of the needle was amplifying in my head. It got me thinking…

And why do you look at the speck in your brother’s eye, but do not consider the plank in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me remove the speck from your eye’; and look, a plank is in your own eye? Hypocrite! First remove the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.
Matthew 7:3-5. New King James Version

Over the years I have been guilty of picking specs out of people's eyes. What does this mean exactly? It simply means judgment. We all fall short of loving one another and doing the right action. In the context of the passage of scripture, Jesus was addressing religious leaders who added unreasonable laws on the commoners. They were watching and judging, instead of looking or reflecting within themselves, they were hypocrites. The warning was clear, Don’t Judge, or you will be judged.  

Many artists, philosophers, and theologians have dissected Jesus's words about judgement and its connection to our ego, overzealous and selfish nature. We have been groomed to take care of ourselves first, instead of taking care of the needs of others. Nobody has received more controversy and judgment than Michael Jackson in the past 50 years. The spotlight on Michael reinforced judgement from the Rocking Chair Brigade, producing division amongst the commoners who never sat at the same table with the King of Pop. In my humble opinion, he wrote the greatest song regarding planks in our eye, Man In The Mirror.

I'm starting with the man in the mirror (oh)
I'm asking him to change his ways (oh)
And no message could've been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make a change…

Like the King of Pop, I too have been scrutinized and judged. I have had to look at the man in the mirror and determine whether the judgements against me were valid. Did my actions warrant the judgement, or does the accuser have the right to judge due to the plank in their eye? Tricky question…

Judgement is reserved for the King of Souls. It is widely accepted throughout the religious creeds and denominations that the King of Souls resides in the heart. So, If God resides in our hearts, our convictions come from within, we don’t need someone to point out our shortcomings. Many times, throughout my life, whenever I have done something wrong, I have an unsettling feeling in my spirit. I can ignore this feeling or make it right by asking for forgiveness from the people I have wronged. In situations where I was not aware that I offended someone it is up to the offended person to make me aware, in private first. There is no judgment, only love and understanding. Conviction of wrongdoing usually starts in the heart first, especially in individuals who want to do the right thing. When we look in the mirror are we willing to make a change?  To forgive the unforgiven, to serve the rich, to feed the hungry, or to clothe the poor are all actions to make the world a better place.

I also started thinking about those qualified to judge. I agree some people are qualified to pick specs, like the doctor who performed sawdust removal on my eye. But, when dealing with matters of the heart, few people are qualified for the job.  Biblical judges are to have their house in order, be fair, and honest, and deal with any specs that would render them unfit for the position. In today’s environment, I am not sure we have the best selection, as ego and name-calling, from so-called leaders, seem acceptable. We are so divided on what is right or wrong. In a democracy the majority rule. If the majority is selfish, self-seeking or self-centred, well… you get the picture.  

As I struggle through seeing the words on the screen and trying to bring you a weekly blog, I am once again convicted about one thing, finding ways to love in today's toxic environment.  Maybe it is the company I keep, not judging, just saying. The feeling in the air is hopelessness and helplessness. My Love rhetoric seems futile when prices are soaring, selfishness is roaring, and hearts are pouring out for help. As I was finishing this blog, I was interrupted by a phone call, hopelessness and helplessness filled the cellular waves. He was reaching out to find the purpose of living.

Wow…

This puts it back into perspective…

​As I look at the man in the mirror, am I ready to stop feeling sorry for the things I can’t control and make the changes necessary to walk with my words?  Am I willing to make that change? Our conviction from the spirit inside, reminds me that I can do better.

We need to be vessels for the change required for a better future, and it starts with the person in the mirror. We need to remove any planks in our eyes and stop searching for the specs in others, which are holding us back from doing the right thing. With all the elections going on, don’t be side-tracked, thinking someone will lead us to a glorious future, more on that next week.

In Love,
By the vessel,
William John

​​This week, I have been asked a few questions from old friends and some new ones, such as, “How do we love the unlovable?” These questions are mostly in the context of relationships, so I feel the need to address this more clearly to my readers.

Jesus was all about love, and that meant everyone, Jews and Gentiles, neighbours and enemies. Jesus also told the truth, he knew when to stay silent, and he was provoked to anger. This does not mean everyone gets a free ticket to act and behave anyway they want because they trust and believe in Jesus, there are consequences for our actions towards our partners, and in today's selfish environment it seems to be dire.

Regarding relationships, it is okay to tell the truth even if it hurts someone’s feelings. This does not mean constantly berating your partner into accepting your truth, causing feelings of disrespect. It is best to stay silent so the one you're accusing of your perceived truth isn’t provoked to anger. Sometimes, being silent is the best plan of action so things don’t go off the rails. When someone is provoked to anger, Jesus said, “Don’t sin in your anger”, (whatever that means?), remember, Jesus clearly sinned (came short of the law) when he whipped all the money changers out of the temple.

In 2018 my then-wife told me I was a narcissist, I had heard the term many times before but determined that it was a psychological condition like Bipolar, Schizophrenic, or mentally delusional. I had to look up symptoms and conditions to better understand what I was being accused of. As it turns out, on the self-diagnostic narcissistic scale, I could have traits of a narcissist, but so did my wife. Over the years, the term has been thrown around like a boomerang.  It is frustrating, as nobody seems to be taking action for their crappy behavior. We need to look at the person in the mirror, this is NOT a narcissist trait. The whole point of manipulation for control is to blame and accuse, we are being played by the devil (metaphorical, allegorical, symbolic, or spiritual, you pick). If we are constantly accusing our partner of being mentally deranged, the obvious consequence will be relationship breakdown. Narcissistic traits run deep in everyone, and I see now how the devils are playing us like fools.

​The Bible states that we will be “lovers of self” at the end of times. From the elitist think tanks, the concept was to break down the family unit with matriarchy (women rule), instead of patriarchy (men rule). Amplifying men's and women's traits is the trick to developing new world ideas from think tanks such as Aldus Huxley, Alister Crowley, and Sigmund Freud. To achieve control of the masses, give the public an unquenchable thirst for luxury and possessions. This creates a dopamine-crazed, self-induced seeker of pleasure (selfishness), instead of a patient, kind, longsuffering, patriarch for the betterment of others.

The idea that men are the head of the household was to be seen as toxic and to be viewed with disdain. The reason was, that strong family values, with men in control, are more difficult to infiltrate. Most men when they find their damsel in distress, will work hard (physically) to maintain their family unit, and this does not mean to provide material wealth, although this is often the result. Men want to provide protection, teach values, and will often take a hard line when discipline is necessary. Men’s traits have been amplified to toxic levels, and it was a devilish design, from the Archie Bunker of the 70s to the Homer Simpson of the 90s.  If men feel unappreciated, they seek validation elsewhere. Men often give in to their selfish desires when seeking validation, acceptance, affirmation, and affection, which can lead to cheating or other forms of abuse.

In the same way, women's traits have been amplified. Women traditionally operate on feelings; they connect life with a nurturing nature. When amplified there is no room for masculinity, as the traits of men don’t compliment, they complicate. Women love on a level that is hard for men to understand often missing the mark in emotional connection. Women are also being programmed to watch for red flags, triggered by certain words or toxic masculine traits. This creates communication breakdown, misunderstanding, and abuse (accusations, manipulation, and self-righteous anger).

​The Answer…
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If you are in a relationship, and it is on the rocks, stop everything and pray. For some people this is spending time alone in nature, for others, it is going into a private room and dropping to their knees. The Bible suggests taking time for fasting and praying, but not too long so the devil cannot get a foothold, you can read in 1 Corinthians 7. In today’s environment, it is easy to seek the next dopamine hit of pleasure, and social media does not help to create unity, so it is best to stay off the device while praying and spending time with God (or alone).

If you are separated and there is no room for reconciliation, then thank God. Thank God for past mistakes, the learning years, and life. Take time to reflect on your traits, and how you reacted and responded to relationship struggles. Take time to mourn the loss. Learn to say, “I’m sorry”. Learn to forgive. Learn to be patient and kind. Get rid of things making you stumble so the devil cannot get a foothold.

Reflect on the Golden rule; Do I treat people the way I want to be treated? Or do I treat people in contempt because they don’t recognize the way I want to be treated? (let that sink in…). Learning to love can be difficult, even Jesus had times of frustration and exhaustion, I'm sure modern day Martha's would have seen him as a narcissist. 

By the vessel,
William John

It has been one of those weeks where I have had a lot of a-ha moments.

Life is amazing! I don’t say this with any malice, ego, or pride. Look around. Look past the hate and cycle of abuse. Do you see the birds and the bees, and everything in between? Life is truly remarkable. We have things to do on this planet, which is found in the “Golden Rule”, Do unto others.

So many people are holding onto the past hurts from past wrongs. Sometimes these past wrongs come at the hands of someone else. This is evil and difficult to overcome, however, finding forgiveness and giving thanks for surviving the abuse is letting go of the possession and the stronghold the abuse has on the mind, body, and soul. When past wrongs are something we have done and when we are the abuser, we MUST ask for forgiveness, this is repentance. More often than not, asking for forgiveness from the people you may have victimized is key to healing and changing hearts. The start of reconciliation starts when we cultivate forgiveness, which is love.

On October 1, Canada celebrated the newly formed Truth and Reconciliation Day. Many people on the extreme right want to debate whether colonialization is a good or bad thing. I did find myself pulled into the matrix on social media for a moment, then realized I was part of the onslaught of misinformation. The a-ha moment was deciding to pull all my comments down because I was not loving. Trying to educate on social media while everyone is holding firm in “their” belief and understanding is futile and is definitely not reconciling. The truth is love, and regardless of any lies, deception, manipulation, or misinformation surrounding the narrative of Truth and Reconciliation, we need to strive for unity and love.

I visited my favorite coffee shop this past week, I love the owner, and we always have great conversations. She said something profound, “Our gift is our existence”. This came out of the left field, and I caught the ball (the gist of what she was saying), God is love and gave us life. That’s it, the a-ha moment, our purpose is to live. We will all experience heartache and happiness, birth and death, it is how we process these experiences and truths that determine our existence. Confusing emotions from the cycle of living and dying have us bound, not by love, but by hate. There have been many gurus, regarding our existence and the subject of God, such as Carl Jung, Helena Blavatsky, and Edger Cayce, however, nobody has me more spellbound than Jesus Christ. Jesus taught that God lives in our hearts, and we possess the power to be new creatures subjugated to love instead of hate. There is no confusion in love.

I attended church for the first time in many years this past weekend and enjoyed the message. I stopped attending church for many reasons, one reason is that it’s not Biblical (a story for another time). I am not against or condemn public worship, it no longer serves a purpose in my life. The message was on renewing the mind. It is a big subject; the pastor nailed some key points and key scriptures to prove God and the existence within. I had an a-ha moment when discussing the sermon with my beautiful brother and sister in the Lord over lunch, renewing the mind is delivered in action when we release a hardened heart. Renewing the mind does not stop with believing something. We must be mindful of how we act and treat others. We must take captive any thoughts that move us in the wrong direction or wrongful decision. We must put our beliefs into action, starting in the heart. Softening the heart equals Jesus, hardening the heart is the opposite, or anti-Christ. Putting up walls and hardening the heart is being promoted at an astonishing intensity, with red flags, narcissism, condemnation, and accusations leading the cause.
 
With the increased level of chaos many people have been feeling within their spirit, we are being challenged to make hard decisions, follow the chaos or follow the peace that comes from a loving creator. One of the biggest promoters of chaos is division-causing denominationalism. What is division-causing denominationalism? you may be asking. The “Our group is right” rhetoric which comes from the pulpit, church, or religious jerks. I know what you're thinking, “he said jerks”… lol.  Seriously though, it is okay to be wrong, and admit that we are all being manipulated to believe dogma. We all hold firm to beliefs that are true within ourselves, it is not for me to convince anyone of anything.  I have battled relentlessly over the years regarding dogmatic religious beliefs, creating division, not harmony. The result of the battles is separation. It causes confusion and division because as soon as our thinking is not in alignment, we consider ourselves “unequally yoked”. My a-ha moment is that all seekers of truth and God are equally yoked. Seeking God should be peaceful, not stressful. Loving should extinguish hating.

God is not the author of confusion, but of peace, as in all churches of the saints. 1Corinthians 14;33

Further expansion and reflection on the word church is required. The Bible is riddled with spiritual language, and the word for church means House of the Lord. The House of the Lord is not a building, it is a place, and this place is in you. The "Kingdom of heaven is within” or “Where I am, there you will be also” are two key verses to prove that we all carry God. The God of our heart is a choice. Choose this day whom you will follow, the god of hate found in the devil, or the God of Love found in Jesus.

Reflecting on this past week's events I am hopeful, but more importantly, grateful. I am grateful, that God blessed me with existing and living at a time such as this. I am grateful, for all my friends and family. I am grateful for renewed hearts. I am grateful for love and my time alone to reflect, ponder, and build. I am reflecting on myself and seeking the love of people over the love of pleasure, property or possessions. I ponder the unknown with curious excitement, knowing God is in control. I am building on the foundation of love found in my superhero Jesus.

​In a world full of hate, brought on by social programming, media lies, and religious ego, it is nice to see the birds and the bees, and everything in between. To our true loves, be grateful for living and loving. Let us always pray we find peace knowing God is in us and trust that love directs our path. I trust that God is working on our hearts and letting go of the things that have us bound.
 
Love Always,
William John